Today I am Stopping

Once in a while, on rare occasions, things go just how you would like them to.  All the pieces of the jigsaw fit together.  An imagined ideal that seemed so out of reach becomes a reality.  

All too often these precious moments pass us by in a blur.  Lost in the hustle and bustle of everyday life.  Drowned out by more challenging or stressful issues.  Life rushes by and the chance to stop, take it in and feel thankful passes us by.

Well not this time.  Today I am stopping.  I am taking it in.  I am feeling thankful.

Today, I have left my job by way of voluntary redundancy.

I am thankful that my company decided to offer voluntary redundancy and that our personal circumstances were such that I could reach out and grab the opportunity with both hands.

I am thankful that I will be able to spend more time with Hugo, who needs me so much, and with Henry, who needs me just as much.

I am thankful that a little bit of the stress in my life has been removed.  That despite the scariness, my little family all agree, this is right for us.  

I am thankful that in the midst of our crazy, difficult life, things can go well too.  That there is another reason to smile.

Today I am pushing my worries about the future to one side.  They have filled my head enough.  It is not the day for worry, guilt or dwelling on what might be.  It is a day for optimism, for excitement, of looking ahead to a new chapter in my life and that of my family.  

Today I am feeling stronger, brighter and ready to fight on at Hugo’s side.

Today I am doing what is right for us, right now.

Today I am stopping.  I am taking it all in.  I am feeling oh so thankful.