Teardrops
Since diagnosis, 7 days ago, I have had to hold Hugo as he cried while numerous medical staff tried time and time again to insert fresh cannulas into his small hands. Telling him it will be okay, when it was anything but okay. Knowing it needed to be done, but still feeling like the worst mum in the world. Wondering whether the trust between us would be forever damaged. Now today, they have surrendered and this morning me and his dad took him down to theatre to have a Port inserted. This is small chamber which is placed under the skin, over the rib cage, which links up to the jugular vein in the neck. It can be used to take blood and also give chemotherapy, fluids and blood products. Hugo would have had one fitted in a few weeks, but it has become necessary to do it earlier than planned.
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Jen
I've teared up reading this Lisa. Firstly, you are an awesome mum and I know you know that. But I also know how impossible it is to feel anything other than awful when doctors and nurses have to do things to your child that you know hurts them, and all you can do is hold them while it happens. Hugo is such a brave boy, such an inspiration, and so lucky to have such a loving family to support him through all this.
Big Trouble in Little Nappies
Another one in tears – this is so very sad but written so bravely. I am so sorry to read about just some of what Hugo has already been through, and you and Rich too. You have so much strength Lisa, I just wish it wasn't being tested in this way. When you can, please keep writing though – you do it so well and it will be such a great record for Hugo and a big help to others, and I hope also to you xx